Thursday, July 8, 2010

Pulling away

It's been four years since S last deployed but I distinctly remember in the weeks leading up to his departure a gradual pulling away from one another.  A defense mechanism perhaps but it's almost automatic and definitely not an overly conscious decision.  I wonder if our children will do this with him as well.  The three that we had when he left before were only 6, 4 and 2 and now with them being a good bit older I'm more worried about how they're going to deal with his absence.  My oldest is taking it pretty rough and personally I might add.

We've started tying up loose ends and putting into place measures to ensure that things run as smoothly as we are able to anticipate but I'm starting to get anxious and nervous.  I can't help but wonder if he's not secretly thrilled to be on an extended paid vacation.